A date to be rescheduled ;)

I was so sure from the time I woke up this morning, that I will be going out tonight on a date! With the person I'm most comfortable with --- Me, Myself and I!!! It has been a while since I went out alone so I would have really wanted to try it out tonight since I won't be meeting bf, my girl friends were not available and I am scheduled for my IPL tonight after work. So it was really supposedly a night of Me-time, only to find out after arriving at work early in the morning, that our center has no power supply! And that meant, we nurses have to bring our patients to another center which is in PASIG. I live in Mandaluyong, went all my way to my work in Marikina AND learned that we were going back to Pasig for our dear patients treatments (Toinks for me =p)

And though I (we all did) welcomed the thought happily, I finished the 12 hour shift feeling SO tired (capital S-O. talaga). I found myself still wanting to push through MY date but I know I just don't have the energy for it anymore. I was so tired that I was able to snooze on my way home. (I cancelled my IPL sched nadin) 

For dinner, I knew I needed something to eat but I also wasn't as up for it anymore so I just dropped by the convenience store near my place and decided to buy a cup of yakisoba. Hehe. And I also bought hot & spicy Nagaraya, Nestle chocolate milk drink, was happy to see a box of Curly Tops and bought it as well. 

Dinner for the tired loner Me :p

Photos from my trusted Motorola 1200 :)

I only was able to prepare the Yakisoba and left everything else in the fridge. (After ofcourse, the 'picturepicture'!!) I was glad that though nobody was home, I was able to find some hot water for 'my dinner' ;) Guess I'll just reschedule my ME time some other time. And hopefully I'll be able to do then everything I have planned doing tonight ;p

God is a God who provides

Christmas day is fast approaching, and so are my thoughts. They are beginning to fill me up-- the things I think I need, gifts I have to buy, food and restaurants I have to try, even the places I wanna visit soon.

I know some of those things are unnecessary that's why I told and convinced myself of leaving all those things up to God's hands :) My 13th month pay won't even accomodate for all the gifts I want to buy for my family and friends. If I accept all those thoughts and 'thinkings', I would just allow fear, insecurity and worry to get the best of me. God gives good gifts. He will be the one to supply me with the gifts that I need to give and He will be the one to give me the gifts that I need or want personally. I don't have to fret myself over things that I don't have any control of. Our God is a big God. He knows the things I need even before I ask Him of it. And I believe that in His time, He will grant me the desires of my heart, as I seek Him and ask Him in prayer. But as for this moment, He is still at work for the condition of my heart and I am just as happy with that. :)

I would remember asking God in my personal journals of giving me a willing heart to obey, of opening my heart for His will and granting me willingness to 'WANT' to obey Him. Obedience is not a common and natural thing for me and I know that God knows it as well. He knows me so much but still choses to love me despite of the person that I am. His greatness will be revealed in changing me. In making me the child that He longs me to be. I won't be able to make it alone, I always want to be broken before Him that He may be the one working for me and in me for I am not capable of changing. Only with Him, I am capable. It may take time, I know. But knowing God, He has all the time. and He's willing to take those time to change me. As He have all His time for everyone else :)

So, goodbye to all those things that will just make me worry. and haller to God's affirmation and provision. May Jesus, the Creator and Perfector of our faith, enlighten those who worry and those who loses hope.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"  

Philippians 4:6